Well so far it’s been several days since I’ve had a bad day so maybe I’m due? Just kidding, I’m trying hard to remember that I get to choose my attitude everyday, and every 24 hours I get to start all over again. Still, there are THOSE days. You all know the kind, when the anger for what has been done seizes control of you and you’re grumpy and short with everyone. Or then there are the days when depression decides to rear its ugly head and every song you hear makes you sad all over again, you can’t wait to get into the shower and let it flow and when your kids ask why your eyes are swollen and red you lie and say your allergies are bothering you again. Or maybe it’s a tv show or the news with the latest gossip of extramarital affair fallout and illegitimate children coming out of the woodwork. And you wonder, is everybody having an affair but me?! Do vows mean nothing anymore? I begin to wonder what I’ll say to my own kids as they grow and begin to date. Our son is soon to be 20 years old and has been dating the same girl for almost 2 years now. Sometimes I want to pull him aside and tell him what I’ve learned so far but then I’m not sure you can teach this, I think it has to be experienced to be understood. That’s why it’s so nice to have the blog world out there. People everywhere in all shapes and sizes, in all locations around the globe feeling exactly what I’m feeling. Struggling to move on one day at a time. Struggling to understand why someone you love would do this to you. Struggling to understand what happened to the person I thought I knew and mostly what happened to me. How did I end up here and where do I go from here. I sometimes feel like I’m lost but reading someone’s blog about their struggles and their triumphs, well it does help. It’s my roadmap back to sanity some days. So to all you bloggers out there – thank you for sharing your experiences, good and bad. For opening your private struggles for others to see. It’s hard to find someone to confide in about all of this, but in blogland there’s no judgment. They know all to well your feelings and struggles. Thanks friends!